When you come to a master it is not a question of what you say. He does not bother to listen to you, what you say. He feels what you are. You may say, ”I wish to learn,” or you may say, ”I desire to learn,” or you may say, ”I am burning with desire and I am ready to surrender....”
This happens. People come to me and they say, ”Accept us, we are totally at your disposal. Whatsoever you want to make of us, make. We are surrendered.” They touch my feet. And if I say to them, ”Then wear orange clothes, be initiated,” they say, ”That is difficult. It will be very very difficult to move in orange robes in the market. And just a moment before the man was saying, ”Iam at your disposal, surrendered, and whatsoever you want to make of me you can.” He is not ready even to change his dress, and he was saying that he allows me to change his being!
He is not aware of what he has said just a moment before. People are talking in their sleep, drunk. They don’t know what they are saying. They may be touching my feet, but they don’t know what they are doing–because if it is just a gesture, a polite gesture it is meaningless. If it is just a mannerism, it carries no significance. But if it is real, authentic, then it can become a transforming force.
But if immediately I say, ”Change your clothes,” they are afraid. And if I say, ”Change your being,” how will it be possible for them?... because if just changing the clothes creates trouble in the market, when you change your being you will be constantly in trouble. Wherever you go you will be constantly in trouble because you will be an outsider. You will belong to a different world, and nobody will feel familiar to you. Even your own people will become separate and fall apart, they will not be able to understand you, you will become a foreigner in your own home. You will be an outsider and people will avoid you, they will not come near you. They will be afraid, because your disease can be infectious. If i say something to do, or accept things all your surrendering and faith will at once vanish. At once master becomes a outsider and a stranger. Never allow your being occupied with others opinions about a master and spirituality. Never allow your faith shake with others opinions.
One need not ask a master; one has to be just in the presence of the master. In India we use the word DARSHAN. That means just to be in the presence of the master. Don’t say anything – he can know without your saying, and whatsoever you say may not be true about you because you are so fragmentary. One fragment says something, another fragment says something else – you are a crowd, you are not one. This moment you say something, the next moment you change. You are a confusion, a chaos.
When you are near a master, you just put yourself in his presence and leave it to him to decide what type of man you are and what is possible for you. Let the master decide – don’t say anything. Don't lose your faith. Master know what is best for you.
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